“You’ve always had the power my dear, you just had to learn it for yourself.” Glinda, Wizard of Oz
I struggle. I’ve always struggled. I was that angst ridden teenager who questioned all and doubted everyone. Twenty years later I’m an angry adult who questions all and doubts everyone. Why haven’t I figured it out yet? I started this journey so long ago. Over the years the questions haven’t changed they’ve just become more desperate and the doubts more internal. If I’ve learned anything it’s that the only thing that matters is what I think, how I react, my choices. That person sitting next to me at work that annoys me and ruins my day? Not their fault. My fault. My choice. It’s been my choice all along.
I guess the questions have changed. Because now I know that it’s in my power to create the circumstances in which I live, love, create, exist. The question has moved from why to how. How do I escape the frustrations and monotony of every day life? Because I honestly don’t think it’s in the cards for me to be a monk on a mountain top contemplating the movement of the Universe. At least not in the lifetime.